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April Is The Cruelest Month - Celebrating The Anniversary Of Your Shattering

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Channel: Mark Smith Family Tree Life Coaching · 2017 · People & Blogs

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Mark Smith shares two poems related to the 2 year anniversary of his shattering from Narcissistic Abuse Syndrome.

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                                           Melded

Soul of my soul
Terrifying screams
Tethered
Melded
Onto you
Only you
Rage
Chaos
Grounds me
Home
Lies
Betrayal
True north
Inside you
Ahhhh
My horror
My destroyer
Bereft
Rudderless
Without you
    

    April Is The Cruelest Month

APRIL is the cruellest month, breeding
Lilacs out of the dead land, mixing
Memory and desire, stirring
Dull roots with spring rain.
Winter kept us warm, covering
Earth in forgetful snow, feeding
A little life with dried tubers

I was happily numb nestled in winter’s covering of forgetful snow
In April you bludgeon this protective layer of counterfeit warmth with ruthless, wicked truths
Truths that lit me on fire and shattered my spirit, body and soul
April is the cruelest month!

I wish to not know the truth of who I am
It is too crushing a blow
I am a fool, I am despised, and worst of all I am unloved 
I am rancid garbage to be disposed of without a thought
April is the cruelest month 

APRIL is the cruellest month, breeding
Lilacs out of the dead land, mixing
Memory and desire, stirring
Dull roots with spring rain.
Winter kept us warm, covering
Earth in forgetful snow, feeding
A little life with dried tubers

Thank God I was not in your filthy hands but rather safely comforted in His
For you see, it was I who used you
To provide sight for the blind and healing for the boy
A true springtime is in blossom now
April is NOT the cruelest month after all!

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