Ghosts Of Narcissistic Abuse Past
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Channel: Mark Smith Family Tree Life Coaching · 2017 · People & Blogs
Ghost Of Narcissistic Abuse Long Past Mark E. Smith, MSW is the Founder and Director of Family Tree Life Coaching. He previously worked as a highly respected therapist and author in the Indianapolis area for 32+ years. He now practices as a Life and Relationship Coach. He offers coaching for individuals, couples, families, family businesses, executive leaders, pastors, and therapists. He has world class coaching expertise in Affair Recovery, Relationship Issues, Narcissistic Abuse Syndrome, Sexual Addiction, Abuse, Trauma, Complex PTSD, Anxiety, Mid-Life Issues, Shame and Abandonment Issues. If you need a safe, courageous, cutting, marriage-jolting healer, he is your guy. You can contact Mark Smith at [email protected] and 317-507-8866. I woke battered and bruised By my latest bout With a beastly, vicious, cartoonish monster The ghost of my recent past narcissistic abuse I was very surprised To be greeted by you yet again Just when I thought you had finally been completely exercised from my heart and soul You show up again In my dreams To haunt me Spitting hatred and rejection Breaking my heart all over again Just when I thought you had finally been completely exercised from the sacredness of my home I stumble across a devil’s treasure trove of your special toys A large half empty bottle of KY oil that heats the skin upon application An open box of condoms And a bottle of yummy strawberry flavored treats for your treats The box laying right there Inches away every day Like a poisonous snake In my safe place As if it had been invisible for the last 20 months I wonder if you have even the slightest clue how much destruction you wrought to the sweet wounded little boy who resides in this courageous warrior’s body? I wonder if you care in the slightest bit what you did and how much it hurt me. I was slaughtered, shattered into billions pieces of blood, guts, terror, panic attacks, shame, humiliation, tears, brokenness, insanity and unending tortuous nightmares I never saw it coming As I meditate in my sacred place today I am still shocked at how much pain still resides within every molecule in my being I know that you were a gift to me A re-enactment of my unresolved business with my dear mother I am not bitter I just beg you Ghost of narcissistic abuse past Please go away Leave me in peace And haunt me no more Keepin it real – I am full of hope and proactivity and warrior spirit but I don’t want to give you the impression that I am always that way – from the wounded little boy Writing Studio/World Headquarters/Where I used to make videos/Where I meditate Mandinka Warrior Necklace
