Look Who it Was Random video

TW: A Message For Ritual Abuse Survivors Who Are Struggling During the Holidays

1,751 views · Published 24 December 2017 · 8:46 · Indexed 26 September 2026

Channel: Dylan Groves · 2017 · People & Blogs

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Some potentially triggering topics mentioned include: Satanic ritual abuse and the energy it generates, Mk Ultra/Monarch mind control, dissociative identities, post-traumatic stress, flooding, deprogramming, healing energy, holidays, grief, romantic relationships, homelessness, codependence, shame, fear, meditation, torture, forced "perpetration," inner child, multi-gendered dissociative parts, materialism

We also used some words and phrases that may be particularly activating for survivors. Our intent was not to trigger anyone, but we ourselves were triggered and not at our most mindful at the time. We apologize for this and hope that any survivors who choose to watch this video do so carefully and practice whatever self-care they need in order to cope with any negative effects that our words have. 

I'd say the most overtly triggering phrase we used was in the last minute, so it may be wise for some people to stop watching the video before then.

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Online resources for survivors of ritual abuse and mind control:

RA Info - Ritual Abuse, Ritual Crime and Healing: https://ra-info.org

RA Info's "Ritual Abuse FAQ": ra-info.org/index.php?cID=82 and "Mind Control FAQ": https://ra-info.org/mind-control have been especially helpful for me.

End Ritual Abuse - The Website of Ellen P. Lacter, PhD: https://endritualabuse.org

Blooming Lotus - Journey to Recovery from Childhood Abuse: https://faithallen.wordpress.com

Surviving Ritual Abuse at Australia - https://survivingritualabuseaustralia.blogspot.com/?m=1

PODS - Positive Outcomes for Dissociative Survivors: https://pods-online.org.uk

"Understanding Integration" by Rachel Downing, LCSW-C: https://sidran.org/resources/for-survivors-and-loved-ones/understanding-integration

Online resources for female survivors of narcissistic and/or sexually abusive mothers. Not all of their content, however, need apply to female-identified people only. I am gender non-binary and have benefitted greatly from reading these pages:

Making Daughters Safe Again - Support for Survivors of Mother-daughter Sexual Abuse: https://mdsa.squarespace.com/mother-daughter-sexual-abuse

Daughters of Narcissistic Mothers: https://daughtersofnarcissisticmothers.com

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Update (8/31/18): A few months ago, I tried to rejoin Survivorship, the first organization that was on my list of resources above. I emailed them the reapplication form, only to receive an email claiming that I did not send the form. I resent it and got no reply. 

After several days, I reached out to someone in the survivor community who I knew had at least been affiliated with them in the past and asked for their assistance, hoping they were not the person with whom I had been speaking. They told me they would contact someone in the organization who could help me. 

Within a few hours, I received an email from Survivorship that was a copy of my last email to them, followed by their last email to me, with a minor edit made to one of the emails. In other words, a near-perfect reversal of our most recent correspondence.

Alarmed, I emailed the survivor I had reached out to for help, explaining what happened and that I was even more concerned. They claimed that they did not understand my concerns and that I should only seek further help from Survivorship (i.e. stop asking them). I am not sure at what point I noticed this, but at some point I realized that the individual I had contacted and the anonymous Survivorship moderator(s) to whom I was speaking both used certain language that made them sound like they were the same person.

I then emailed the Board of Directors at Survivorship and explained what had happened, only to be told that they did not see any problems, my application was denied and they may not be able to respond to me if I contacted them again. 

I share this because I see that before this happened, I included Survivorship at the top of my list and want to sincerely apologize to anyone who may have contacted them and had a traumatic experience as a result. I do not know if the entire organization is unsafe, but I know that there is at least one unsafe person with whom I spoke who may still be involved with them today. 

I also included two other resources that I now am not as confident are safe and have removed as well. That still does not mean that any of the links above are safe either. I just haven't had any experiences with them, as far as I know, that indicate that they are not.

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Update (11/22/19): In order to honor ourselves and our non-binary gender, we are going back to our former front name Dylan - https://youtu.be/RgTi07WrOH4

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