... for somebody else to understand?
2,177 views · Published 20 December 2007 · 1:31 · Indexed 28 October 2026
Channel: johnofjordan · 2007 · People & Blogs
Depression is closing in on me. I feel like a burden to everyone. I just don't want to feel like "this" anymore... and I'm all out of ideas. "No one will rescue me if they don't know I'm gone" - Miles Away, Sophie B. Hawkins Will anyone even notice if I sail over the edge of the earth? My fear is they will not. That perhaps without an audience, I might cease to exist at all. That perhaps a tree in a forest does not make a sound. I am that tree. My value is tattooed to the sole of my feet. And it doesn't amount to much. I don't want to work so hard for your affection, and yet working so hard has been the closest I've ever come to something that felt... real, reciprocated. I am nothing at all. It's okay. I get it. I really do. But did you have to look right through me as if I wasn't there? That was much too unkind.
