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TW: Some Guidelines for Contacting Us Online (Mk Survivor w/Polyfragmented DID)

4,598 views · Published 29 August 2018 · 22:21 · Indexed 31 October 2026

Channel: Dylan Groves · 2018 · People & Blogs

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Hi guys, in this video we address some boundary issues we've been having with people online and how best to reach out if you want to help us and the survivor community as a whole. We hope this is the last video we'll feel compelled to make of its kind, at least for awhile, but the past three weeks of all this sudden attention have been intense and have brought up a lot of things for us that we've wanted and needed to share with you all. 

Some potentially triggering topics mentioned in this video include: Mk Ultra/Monarch mind control and deprogramming, Satanic ritual abuse, Polyfragmented DID, Complex PTSD, boundary issues/codependence, internet trolls, being disbelieved and verbally abused, vulnerability, our boyfriend screening our comments and emails, unasked for advice and being told what to do, internalizing others' opinions, how to appropriately make suggestions to us, misperceptions of us as a disempowered victim who needs to be controlled, overheating and dehydrating, triggers relating to Christianity and Evangelism, torture programming, confusing Earth-based spiritualities with Satanism, not accepting donations of money or physical gifts but accepting some services, accidentally accepting an online gift card in a dissociated state, text in caps as a trigger, our alter Kelly's frustration with some non-survivors' ignorance, glitching, a flashing red dot on our camera

Here is a link to our video, TW: How to Be a Christian Ally to Satanic Ritual Abuse & Mind Control Survivors (See Description): https://youtu.be/8Rt4DXwXGNE

We'd also like to acknowledge that Kayvon said some words and phrases in this video that may be triggering for mind control survivors and, at times, said them with repetition. Kelly said a potentially triggering phrase as well. This is not something they did to trigger people, they themselves were just triggered and were thusly liable to speak in ways that were familiar to them. It also ended up being Kayvon's twitching that accounted for most of the background noise, not the sounds of the street. They have a lot of trouble staying still. And we lastly want to acknowledge that at 16:57, we made a mistake and switched from speaking about people in general to ourselves. This was a glitch and we are sorry if it confuses or activates anyone. This was a hard video for us to make. 

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Update (9/16/18): In this video, we stated that we have been putting the term Mk Ultra in all caps, which was due to an inner commitment we made a long time ago to honor how serious it is. However, after posting this video, we have realized that it is far more important that we make the term as safe for survivors to read as possible. We are truly sorry that this need did not become "real" to us before. It's so fundamental and we are ashamed that it did not, but our desire to put it in all caps goes way back to when we were small. If we were more mindful, we would have put that aside and put the term in lower case from the start, but all we can do now is change it so that our content is not as triggering for others in the future. 

Thusly, we are now going back through all of our videos and changing the way we've written the term in the titles and descriptions, as well as making other changes that we think will improve our videos' accessibility to survivors. This may take us some time, but we are committed to doing it as we want this channel to be as helpful as possible. 

~ Katy & co.

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